The hardest goodbye

01 May

The week after Nashville’s been a long one.  A stretch of 6 days lasting no less than 11 hours each at the hotel, and I am worn out.

Unfortunately my “weekend” wasn’t much better.  After struggling for months with her stiff and achy joints, Chancie fractured her leg while sliding on the kitchen floor.  The vet said she likely had a bone tumor if it had fractured that easily, and there wasn’t much they could do for that.  Surgery was an option, but at 14 she was having a difficult time getting around on four legs.  There’s no way she could have handled her 100+ pounds with only three legs.  So,  we made the decision to have our beloved Chancie put to sleep.

God it was hard.  We cried and cried, and then cried some more.  Hubby especially, since she was his main companion throughout the day.

It was the right thing to do, we know.  Her poor old body was failing her, and we didn’t want her to continue suffering.

But God it was hard.

It’s funny, but when she was with us, I’d get so aggravated with all the hair – in the carpet, gathered around the kitchen chairs, stuck to my work pants – but now, I find one of her hairs and I’m reminded of what a sweet girl she was and how lucky we were to have had her in our lives.

Agg can vouch for the personalities of Golden Retrievers.  They never meet a stranger.  Whether it be human or animal, Chancie loved and welcomed everyone, and wanted to be their friend.

She will absolutely be missed.

Chancie and Tiger 3

By everyone.


Chancie and tiger 2


Posted by on May 1, 2015 in Family


13 responses to “The hardest goodbye

  1. territerri

    May 2, 2015 at 12:34 pm

    I’m so very sorry you had to say goodbye to Chancie. I can vouch for how difficult it is, no matter whether you’re an extreme animal lover, or just the typical variety. I was just thinking yesterday how easy it is to love our pets – and wondering why it’s so easy. I think it’s because they love their people no matter how much or how little attention we give. They accept us without question and keep us from feeling lonely when our other people aren’t around. Our pets are some of the most unselfish beings in our lives. We could learn a lot from them. No wonder it’s so hard to say goodbye. Hugs to you!

    • shadowrun300

      May 4, 2015 at 2:26 am

      It’s incredible how much she loved us, and especially how much she loved my husband. I STILL cry when I think of her, and I’m quite sure he does too. Such a sweet girl she was.

  2. Abby

    May 3, 2015 at 4:38 pm

    Aw no, I’m so sorry! It’s so hard to lose a beloved pet, even when you know it’s the right thing to do. I’m sure Chancie was a wonderful part of your family and loved you all in that special way that dogs love so unconditionally. Know that you gave her a good life in those 14 years. Warm hugs.

    • shadowrun300

      May 4, 2015 at 2:29 am

      Thanks Abby. I had a difficult time writing this post, and now I’m crying again reading your responses. She was a great dog – and very much a member of the family. We miss her.

  3. lottajoy

    May 5, 2015 at 12:50 am

    Oh, I hate this SO much. I still second guess putting Lucky to sleep: blind, lost bladder control, etc., but I was going by the thought that “TODAY he will enjoy something, and I don’t want to take that away from him” (and it’s been FIVE YEARS!) Beau’s leg that was operated on in January, still collapses from under him, so I doubt the surgery for your child would have been successful. BUT STILL……Dogs love with all their hearts, with no room for anything else. That’s what they DO. I’m so sorry for you and your husband.

    • shadowrun300

      May 5, 2015 at 1:02 am

      My thoughts kept fleeting to you and Beau when we were trying to decide. I knew Beau was still hopping around, and I thought NO way could Chancie do that. And trying to help her would have been extremely difficult. But we were making the decision to not have her in our lives anymore, and…dang it…. now I’m crying again. I’m just trying to believe she’s at peace and pain free. Give Beau a hug from me.

  4. Rock Chef

    May 5, 2015 at 3:45 pm

    So sorry to hear that, but as you say you definitely did the right thing. Not that it makes it any easier.

    • shadowrun300

      May 6, 2015 at 4:36 am

      I think it was the hardest thing we’ve ever done. But she’s pain free, and hopefully walking and playing like the puppy she always believed she was, even when her body was failing her.

  5. Rock Chef

    May 6, 2015 at 7:30 am

    Send me an email at and I will send you a copy of my book as a PDF.

  6. agg79

    May 11, 2015 at 5:51 pm

    God. I am so very sorry. I am crying for you as well. I know how much Chancie was part of the family and how much joy she brought into your home. I know it was hard for you to let her go but she is now running pain free on the other side of the bridge. I wish I could offer up some really good words of comfort and solice but my heart is breaking and words fail me at times like these. I am like your husband, my two are like my best friends, walking buddies, partners in crime and I would be devastated if anything happen to my furry kids. I still tear up when I think of losing Shadow 4 years ago. I am afraid that Claire is having some of the same issues right now and seems to be slowing down and I am trying to avoid thinking about it. I agree that Goldens do have a certain trait that makes them everybody’s friend. They are certainly the goofiest, friendliest, hairiest, and most loyal dogs I have ever had. She was loved and will be missed.

    • shadowrun300

      May 12, 2015 at 1:29 am

      All so true. She was the sweetest dog ever, and from what I’ve seen and read, your two are the same way.
      It’s been two weeks, and I still cry when I think of her. I think I always will. She’s left a huge hole in our lives. BUT, she added so much to our lives while she was with us. And I know she’s running pain free now.

  7. llcooljoe

    May 11, 2015 at 9:35 pm

    Oh no, I’m so sorry. I know all about losing people/animals we love. It’s so hard.

    • shadowrun300

      May 12, 2015 at 1:30 am

      Aww Joey – I know you know all about it. I’m so sorry for your loss. It IS hard. Thinking of you….


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